So upon musing over what I should be focusing on this year, I came to a realization of a few things. First of all, I am graduating from nursing school THIS YEAR! I will be done in December! Wahoo! I can't believe how fast the last year went. On my first day, I remember thinking quite clearly how 2 years was going to go by very slowly, especially after I met my first instructor. We were quickly initiated into our white shoe bootcamp by a very drill sergeant-like instructor. It was her job to scare us into submission, and it worked. Now I catch her smirking every so often, and I know she loves to scare the newbies. I think she secretly liked us. Anyway, fast forward to a year later, and I still feel a little scared. They expected us to screw up before, but now they're expecting us to remember stuff. I don't know which is scarier, being completely untrustworthy or being left alone in my not-quite-yet-capable hands.
So my main plan for this year is to not just survive, but to shine! I will have more confidence in myself. I will balance my school with my family's and my personal needs. I will not pout. I will plan ahead. I will waste less time. I will choose an attitude of contentment. I will not feel guilty over what I am not doing. I will do what I can when I can and that will have to be good enough. I will not put other people's feelings over my family's feelings. I will worry less about what others think of me. I will leave others around me feeling happier. I will laugh and smile more. I will find more joy in what I am doing. I will have more fun with my children and husband. I will be more affectionate and tell them how great they are. I'm going to BE happy, because that is my choice regardless of what is happening around me.
I hope I can still remember this when everything gets crazy around me, as I know it will. It's just what happens with kids, husband, dog, activities, studying, school, homework, yada yada. It's gonna happen. So I just have to remember to keep my head about me and not let it overtake me.
"Not all those who wander are lost" ~J.R.R. Tolkien
"Not all those who wander are lost." ~J.R.R. Tolkien
